I'm moving on...

So I can start my life a new with no one getting in my way, I can find myself and leave what I called home. Since you aren't going to be around and you've apparently moved on might as well write it off as a short love story and go find a new home in someone else. So ITALY, SPAIN! FRACE! JAPAN! HERE I COME!

Silence..

Silence, I can't stand it today something must take my attention away... but from what?
What is it I am desperately running from?  I do not know.
Silence it's itching through my soul I run rampid, moving my feet, swing my arms, I must do something. To keep me from this silence. Eating where's the food where's the kitchen get me something, I not hungry, but yet I'm eating. Now I'm crying tears are streaming down my face but theres no silence anymore, and I thank the Lord for my distractions. I am chained to my distractions. So I pray take away, this horrid pain no longer do i want this ball and chain attached to me.. let me be silent.

Old quotes...

"I have come to the age where a women starts to question whether the wisest way to go to get over the loss of one beautiful brown-eyed young man is indeed promptly invite another one into her bed. " -Eat, Pray, Love

"You gotta stop wearing your wishbone wear your backbone oughtta to be."- Eat, Love Pray

"To be loved by something more than a rinky-dinky love, something deeper. To think a boy helped you find this deep love inside unknown of its existence till then. But think of the possibilities if you let God in. "- Eat, Pray, Love

"You need a drought breaker, baby. Gotta go find yo'self a rainmaker"- unknown

Random comparisons that I enjoy:
Catnip & kryptonite
You are my light house and my albatross

"Death so should never be the matter of necessity only the matter of circumstance."- Catch22

"Justice could be satisfied without it, progress did not hinge apon it, and victory did not depend on it."-Catch 22 (The demand of premature demise)

"There was always something deadly lurking in anything I wanted, anything I loved. Then if it wasn't there I put it there myself."-A Separate Peace

"There was only one catch and that was catch-22, which specified that a concern for one's own safety in the face of dangers that were real and immediate was the process of a rational mind.( Anyone who wants to get out of combat duty isn't really crazy)"- Catch 22

"Hes got flies in his eyes. How can he see he's got flies in his eyes if he has flies in his eyes?- Catch22

"First treat a women like a person, than a princess, than a greek goddess, than a person again."-Shawn Spencer (psych)

"Awh, you're upsetting me, you just changed my mood from an orange yellow to a muddy brown. Quick say something nice to me. " -Psych (the one with the mood ring)

My fair maiden

She turned to the man who asked for her hand. And said dearest friend I'm so sorry. You see I gave my heart away to a traveling priest and there it will always remain. The friend turned to the girl and says who is this man who ran with my fair maidens heart? I will find him and try him for this heart of yours, we shall cast but the fairest of lots. Well the maiden replied, he's quite easy to find quite thin with a queer since of style. He hides behind books and his childish looks and is extremely polite. The story goes on though it be bitter the man never got her approval.

Why do I have love like an Ocean in my soul?

Why do I love you and can't stop? I've tried but it seems you would have to stop my beating heart.

I love him I do, and I shall till I die, no time can part this heart of mine. Though I know in my heart I deserve not a man who can't see that I would love him even if he had blood on his hands. That I would stay by his side though he use not my aid, it might slightly bruise me but I would love him the same.

We would never work out that I know to be true. I just wish you would love me the way I love you.

Never Been Kissed

Why must she be the girl who's gone through life having never been kissed. She dared to believe that love would come her way from kindergarden, then she told herself just wait till your older. Middle school came and went, and she began to believe high school held her love story. Unfortunately that girls in college wondering where did she go wrong. And maybe in her life time she will get that true love's kiss, but for now she stopped her waiting and said to hell with boys instead. So now she'll grow-up on her own in some penthouse in the sky, drinking down the vodka,  praying to forget about her life.

You think inside she must be hurting with a pain no one can see, some times she kind of voices it but not to it's extremes. She thought about a doctor to help her through her pains. But to say she's suicidal, her parents would only think her vain. So instead she cries herself to sleep, dreaming through the pain. Hoping that someday, God will take it all away.

Freedom of the heart

     The world is my stage holding endless opportunities that only you can seem to free; so reach for the stars set yourself free dream as a kid running in boundaryless simplicity cause deep down in side you just want to find that ever after.